Update from Becka

Mike and I went home for my grandmother's funeral. As hard as it was, I kept telling the Lord the situation was good . . . and He was good. Although it was sudden, it was what Yia-yia would have wanted. And she's with Papou now, no doubt telling him what to do! It was a great weekend with family but a tough one for Mike. He had nine seizures in 24 hours and one that lasted for 17 minutes. It was very scary for me, and I was thankful to have family in the house. After this seizure activity, Mike lost the ability to talk. You'll remember he experienced this before as a side effect to medicine. This time the loss of speech is directly related to seizure activity. After some time of being seizure free (hours), his speech returns, but this is yet one more symptom that is frightening. Mike remained in NH while I flew back to work. We were concerned he was not stabile enough to fly. He was able to see his primary care from NH this morning and seizure med levels will be drawn to see if an increase is warranted. My mom has also started Mike on an elimination diet - eliminating artificial everything to see if this makes a difference. What would I do without my parents?!! The plan is for Mike to be stabilized and then fly home. To say the least, having this happen the weekend of my grandmother's services was extremely difficult. To get back on that plane without my husband because he was too sick was heartbreaking. Mike has officially been sick for a yr and 13 days, but who's counting?
Recently, a friend sent this my way:

Trust You
By Michael Gallaugher

I cannot see You in this darkness
All that I feel is misery
Every question goes unanswered
Every breath a desperate plea

I need strength for today, and hope for tomorrow

I stand in my pain and choose to trust You
I believe You know better than me
Though I don’t understand
I place my life in Your hands
And I worship You

I cannot hear You in this silence
All that I can feel is agony
But You’re still good in all I’m facing
You’re the Lord of stormy seas

I need strength for today, and hope for tomorrow

I stand in my pain and choose to trust You
I believe You know better than me
Though I don’t understand
I place my life in Your hands
And I worship You

Father come and hold me
Let your love surround me
Your compassion’s never-ending
Your mercy new each morning

I need strength for today, and hope for tomorrow

I stand in my pain and choose to trust You
I believe You know better than me
Though I don’t understand
I place my life in Your hands
And I worship You


These words are my heartbeat most days. I most resonate with needing hope for tomorrow and believing He knows me better than me . . . . and the trusting part I struggle with - but also don't know what else I'd do.
Thank you for your continued prayers and encouragement. You'll never know how much they mean.