Reunion

Last weekend, Mike and I got away to the great state of PA. It was my 10 year college reunion. Wowsers, I am old! Mike and I delayed plans until we knew how he'd be, but we went with the understanding that if Mike wasn't doing well, we'd drive right back home. We drove to Columbus and picked up one of my girlfriends and then to PA to pick up another and off the four of us went to Messiah College! I jokingly told Mike it was like having sister wives - him and three women - not sure he appreciated my humor - not sure you will either, but thought I'd share cuz I think I'm funny!!! I digress. We had a great weekend. I connected with lifelong friends. When I say lifelong, that is truly what I mean. These people mean the world to me. I care so deeply about their struggles and rejoice greatly in their blessings. It's doing life together from a distance. They have done life with us. They have read, called, emailed, come over, blessed, given, prayed, loved, encouraged . . . done life . . . .walked through our pain. There's nothing more uplifting in all this than to know that others are doing life with you. It makes the journey bearable when at times we just want to be done with life. During the reunion, I had a moment on Saturday morning when I told Mike I wanted to go home. There was this intense cloud of depression to watch all my friends moving on in life and happiness in stark contrast to my life. Please DON'T read this the wrong way - I am overjoyed with my friends' blessings in life. I pray God's sweetest and best hand on their lives . . . . but reality hits when people are fixing their houses and moving and getting new jobs and bringing up sweet children and moving on in life and you can't see anything but just getting through the day, no plans for the future. I had my depressive thoughts, had a cry and a good hug, and that was that. It was done. I was free to revel in the reunion and all the joy it brought. At the end of the weekend, my insides ached from laughing the hardest I have in a while and we went home with a happiness in our hearts. Mike did great over the weekend. He only bowed out once to sleep. He was a trooper! I so appreciated that he stayed up when he didn't feel well and it did my heart well to see him enjoying himself with good friends. You see, my friends are so accepting. They don't just love and care for me - they love and pray God's best for Mike's life too. That is sweet. It was a great and needed time.

Mike update: Mike is scheduled to see the endocrinologist tomorrow. He'll get the results of some blood tests (hormone levels) and other tests. His headaches have been off the charts bad. He's been vomiting several times during the night. One night he vomited and then passed out which freaked me the heck out! I get up with him now when he vomits in case he passes out again. Durk goes down hard as you might imagine! He has an appointment Nov 1 with the headache specialist. We don't have high hopes for this appt. His appointment to have the nasal passage cleaned out and the growth on the back of his head are set - mid and late November. Mike's mom will be here for a couple days after the nasal surgery and then my mom will be here for a couple days so I can continue to work. We'd most appreciate prayer for sleep. The headaches interrupt Mike's sleep on so many levels and it hurts me so much to see him in pain and not be able to do a darn thing about it.
It's sweet doing life with you all,
Becka